Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Bad Days

I feel a little better now, but I've got a massive stomach ache and I'm royally pissed at myself.  Why?  Because for the past three nights I've eaten my sorrows in the form of complete crap, mostly candy, and I hate that I did that.  I've hit a wall with all of the stressors in my life and I just lost it.  Totally and completely lost it.  I know how it happened, I was stressed to the max about things I cannot control and I can control what I eat so I did that.  I didn't control it in a healthy way, of course.  Why do I turn to crap food when I feel bad/stressed?  It doesn't help me with my goals and it doesn't even leave me feeling good.  I went from feeling like I could accomplish anything on Friday to feeling like the weakest person on the planet today.  I know that I need to cowgirl up and dust myself off but right now I almost don't want to.  Today I will eat healthy and get in some exercise tonight, but I don't really feel like it, and that is what I hate.  I want to want to eat healthy and exercise, like I did before, I just don't know how to break out of this funk and stop stressing out.  All I know is that this is not a solution to my problems and it's not helping me out at all.