Wednesday, October 14, 2009

Starting Over. Again.

I may have to go back to tracking, ugh.  Not forever, but to get myself back on track because I've been crazy again with my eating.  Late night snacking, no portion control, candy, you name it.  Why?  I don't really know.  I think maybe it's because I feel good about how I look and I don't have those 'I really need to lose weight' thoughts chasing me.  I think it was easier when I was heavier and had more weight to lose, because I was really, really motivated.  I made it into the healthy BMI range and I think I gave up.  I still have 20+ pounds to go, and I do feel like I'm still carrying around excess weight, so giving up now really isn't an option.  Plus, weight aside, I know how much better I feel when I eat right, and I know how energized I am when I get regular excercise.  I can't let myself get sidetracked again because this is about my health and that is the top priority.  I need to treat my body with respect and give it what it needs, and everything else will come with that.

I left home early this morning to go to the gym (new development, free gym membership through work!) where I powerwalked with a high incline, then did the stairmaster, and back to the tradmill before rushing off to work.  It was great!  I ate my breakfast of oats, dates, PB, and walnuts and now I'm snacking on grapes - delicious!  Why do I even think that crap food will make me feel better?  THIS is what makes me feel good!